Monday, April 4, 2011

For Good

After an exhaustive search with more than two months in a one-room hotel for temporary housing... so happy! The day we got the keys to our Tennessee home.

After a weekend full of sunshine, it's gray and windy outside the guest room window. A dear friend gave up almost his entire weekend to deep clean our carpets and buff our floors, and this generous act alone makes me feel like everything is finished. Of course it's not, but I'm loving the lazy feeling that having such a big project done is giving me. The rain sure helps.

I, too, am remembering this post.

I think it's time to finally tell the latest part of our story.

You see, back in the fall Joe lost his job. A couple days before the fateful September morning, I had been a wreck. I was crying a lot, the nagging feeling I've had for years about being involved in youth ministry was especially strong. Are we where we're supposed to be? Why has this season, albeit many parts wonderful, been such a struggle and so hard in the most unusual ways? What is up with me, God? I thought for sure I was losing it. I mean, Joe had an amazing job-- one that allowed for me to stay home, while he fought for liberty. And our community here? Smaller, but strong, and incredible!

Come Monday morning, I heard the doorknob turn at 11 am and my stomach lurched. I called out, "Joe??" One look at his face when he reached the top of the stairs, and I knew it was bad. The economy, life had caught up with our place in the non-profit world, and the small satellite office here had to become smaller. Talk about shock. For us, for folks spread out everywhere who do this type of work. It didn't make sense to anyone, considering Joe and his God-given and hard-earned talents. Our minds were reeling, but God had already given me my break down in the days leading up to it all. I also had the consoling words my Mom had been uttering for months, "Katrina, I just feel like I should tell you that God has some great things in store if you'll just hold on." Through His grace, I was calm and I had strength.

My theme verse: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. ~Romans 8:28

The rest is a blur, but we knew we had a severance and emergency funds to last for a little while so we could begin an extensive job search. We cut back, Joe took on contract work, I became more creative, friends rallied around us with support and encouragement. And we worked and waited and prayed, sometimes through gritted teeth. But, mostly, we believed. This had to be a part of God's plan.

After several weeks, Joe had a notion to contact a guy he hit it off with in our parenting class at the church in town we no longer attended. A random connection, to be sure, but a great guy who-- as it turned out-- no longer attended that church either. Amazing because God allowed our small windows there to overlap in the most perfect of ways.

Several interviews, including a spousal one later, Joe had a job working with bankruptcy attorneys at Dave Ramsey's organization. Bonus was we got hired just in time for the famous Christmas party! We expected nothing but walked out of there with $500 and an ipad which we could return for cash. Such things are fun-- but what a gift at Christmas time when things were tight! Thanks be to God. Not to mention being surrounded by excellent, uplifting, and talented individuals. Dave does it up right.

Joe's salary is mostly based on commission there, so it's enough to cover housing. However, such favor has been granted and he has excelled at the work. What we haven't brought home in dollars, we have certainly recovered in peace and knowledge. Dave's famous saying...

Live like no one else so that later you can live (& give!) like no one else.

... has resonated to the core with us. We've always been pretty frugally minded, we've always tried to be generous with resources-- but now? Now we have plans! We are excited to sell, cut back, simplify, and down size to REALLY live and give. Our Father has brought along resources through this job to teach us such a multitude of lessons and offer us the tools to achieve them. We are not yet done, but we are moving along. I love the seasons of marriage when we are extra unified and goal driven together. Through an incredible hardship, this has turned out to be one of the best times yet.

About a month into his new job, we received a call from Liberty University. Back in the fall, when we were searching, a college or university job seemed the natural next step to us and to all who know us well. Ever since we met on a college campus, Joe and I have longed to someday get back into this type of ministry. But the timing was not to be so. After major conferences, job interviews, and countless resume packets it seemed the odds were not in our favor.

Seemed, that is... but GOD!

When driving back home from Northern Virgina over Christmas, we began to talk about how we should have maybe looked around Lynchburg... you know, just in the crazy case that their phone call ever materialized into anything. Moments after this conversation our phone rang. On the other end? Liberty! We were so in awe, we couldn't even pick up the phone.

We decided to see how far we were from the area and told each other that if we were an hour or less from there, we'd swing by for a visit. Joe called our friend, Mark, and in a few minutes discovered that we were two exits away from the one we needed and indeed it was an hour away. We quickly exited and forged ahead with an overwhelming sense of adventure making us like giddy college students ourselves!

Liberty had wanted to set up a phone interview with Joe and he and the dean hit it off. Next would be the formal interview. Joe would work his usual hours, getting home around 6:45 or so, and then we would stay up half the night preparing his hour lecture to be given to the faculty. Me on power point, Joe on writing. Finally it was done, his flight was leaving, and we were whispering prayers for God to open and close doors to make His will known.

Not long after Joe's return home an offer was extended, the details of which still blow us away. After almost three years of wondering why certain things weren't working out, why certain things had gone down the way they did, why it seemed we were sometimes pounding square pegs into round holes... answers! Not only answers from this season, though, answers for prayers we had barely dared to dream in the last decade. Prophetic words came true down to some of the smallest details.

How could we not say yes? And so we did.

Since then, it has been so encouraging and so hard. To leave this community? It's not something I can entirely take in right now. Thankfully, things went well with sharing at Dave Ramsey and they love Joe and want to keep him on through when we leave. Oh the house prep with three small children, the remaining decisions to be made, the never ending to-do list, the mound of patience I waver between having and losing, the hope and prayer that God has just the right buyer for our house. Such an Israelite I can be! God has provided hand over fist and yet with the remaining details, I can worry that He won't also see to those.

I've been humbly put back in my place more than a time or two with that kind of attitude. But none so much as last week!

Our dear friend, and former c0-worker, came over to visit and shared that Joe's old boss at the non-profit had stepped down to go and work with another non-profit organization. That's putting it mildly as it was an incredible shock for the entire company Joe worked for! However, the clincher? They are closing down Joe's former office! Our friend is being forced to either move to some undesirable locations or across the country or lose his job altogether. And if he chooses the latter, there is likely no severance.

That could have been us.

Yet instead, God gave us the desires of our hearts. Teaching. Ministering. Being closer to both sides of our family for the first time ever. I'm already dreaming up the college Bible studies in our home, having Joe's classes over for dinners, and the like. Plus so much more. Had Joe not been let go when he was, we would have never been able to get this job or to learn what we have at Dave Ramsey. Had he not been let go, we would have never willingly left the type of work he was doing-- we feel too strongly about its mission.

Which leads to one of the sweetest clinchers of all.

One of the two classes Joe will teach... legal clinic. He and four students working on religious freedom, first amendment cases together!

This long post, meant for keeping my memory alive at the hand of God, only scrapes the surface. But when I need strength in these late nights and busy days, I don't want to forget.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. ~Romans 8:28

Yes, thanks be to God.
~Katrina

4 comments:

amy said...

Oh WOW...that was a lot to take in. My goodness, how scary to see Joe home unexpectedly...my heart would sink. You certainly couldn't see His plan at the time, but you remained faithful knowing that "God works for the good of those who love Him"...I love that, I actually just wrote that down at church yesterday. Definitely a verse to meditate on.

I understand the fear (to some extent), Jeromy received a big pay cut and it feels like a punch in the gut. You hope and pray to keep making forward progress, and then come the road blocks. But, like you, we know there is a greater plan and at the end of the day we believe in a God that knows which doors to open and close and He knows the path set before us...He will not fail us.

I do love how your story turns out...what a BLESSING!! Can't wait to watch your story unfold as you make your way to another chapter in your life....GOOD LUCK and prayers coming your way for selling your house!

Jeannie said...

Oh dear, that is a lot to deal with, but I am so glad and encouraged to read what I would have expected: that you and Joe made the absolute best of your situation and found happiness at the end of a long, rough road. Congrats to Joe on the new job and good luck with the move!!

Lynn said...

Thanks Katrina for writing your story. I sooo needed to hear and be reminded that God is in control and that He works for the good. I have been struggling with several things lately and your post has just put everything in perspecitve for me and I now feel an overwhelming clamness and peace that has not been here lately. Thank you for reminding me that God has control and He is working things out for the Good.

Good luck with your move and your new adventure. I will be praying for you all as you start your new journey.

saraiwithani said...

Obviously, God is continually showing up on behalf of your family. Your story and His faithfulness never cease to amaze me! Thanks for sharing, friend! Prayers for you all in the coming days and much excitement over what's to come! Love you all!